This is the second New Year’s Eve I’ve spent on my own… alone… whilst my husband is off working (he runs pubs and New Years Eve is a busy night). If you’re waiting for the sob story of how I got through the night… stop reading, this blog isn’t for you.
The honest truth is, I couldn’t wait for him to leave. I had such a great afternoon and evening planned, I couldn’t wait to get started.
I knew I wanted to perform some kind of New Years Ritual to release the old and bring in the new, but everything I read on the internet was too specific and had too many rules. One even said “and definitely no alcohol !!”. Um hello.. it’s New Year’s Eve.
So I decided to make up my own.
The second my husband left, I got out some fishing line and went outside to my frangipani tree and made myself a lei. I wore it all night. It smelt beautiful. It made me feel like a goddess. Like I was on holiday.
During the afternoon, I drank beer in the pool, I ate prawns, oysters, potato bake and brie cheese (yep, they don’t go together but they are my favourite foods and that’s what I wanted to eat). I prepared the food as degustation throughout the afternoon and evening as I felt like it.
I played music… LOUD.
But, hang on, isn’t this what New Years Eve is all about, letting go of all the shit you don’t want to take with you into the New Year? But as I sat, and waited, it became clear that in fact I had already let go of everything. That for the past few months, as each day dawned, I’d been leaving behind that which I didn’t want or need.
So I started a new page in my journal and titled it “Things I want to attract in 2017”. Again, I waited. I waited. I waited and nothing came.
But then the clarity came. The night wasn’t about performing a ritual that I thought I “had to” or “should” do. It wasn’t about anything other than celebrating who I had been, who I am now and who I am becoming. To celebrate the love I have for myself.
So I turned up the music, popped the cork on a bottle of champers and celebrated.
What things are you doing because you feel you “have to” or “should”? Hmmm…. maybe it’s time to stop?[/fusion_text]